All Lonely Roads Lead to Old Sembahnang

by Elizabeth Wong

There were roads in Sembahnang that had not felt the hum of cars in a while. These roads were now cracking apart into hexagons, with weeds pushing, forcing themselves into broken spaces where hot bitumen was once laid. Now, the mangrove swamp encroached. No one has used them, not since the flood—no one, other than runners, scientists, Scout troops on expeditions, and of course, themselves.

The two of them had spent many a Saturday on the green glass beach, when they were younger. They took the road Jalan Changkat Beruas that ran through the artificial rivers and lakes of Mr. Tan’s prawn farm and passed by a row of makeshift huts—zinc sheets slapped together to form homes for Mr. Tan’s Burmese workers. The zinc sparkled in the afternoon heat and scorched their hands when they touched it. And then, the road wound around a cluster of fish warehouses, where the fish were manually sorted before being carried away to capital, in shoals of ice in dirty grey styrofoam boxes. In the morning, wooden boats powered by diesel engines brought in the fish and hoisted their catch with slings into the warehouses by noon. The two of them would stop at the warehouses to help with the manual sorting. Big fish goes in one pile, medium fish goes in another, small fish goes in another, weird fish goes in the weird fish pile. Their hands, shoes, and clothes would be stained with fish ooze, but they got a free lunch—packed nasi lemak with a fried egg and anchovy bits.

After their lunch, Jalan Changkat Beruas would take them further, away from people, to an old railway line that led onward to the beach. They used to skip unevenly across the wooden sleepers, from one row to another. Their entire journey took forty-eight minutes one way, according to Kevin, reading off his black Casio wristwatch with a tiny calculator (he got his watch when he was eleven for doing well in his exams). If they ran all the way there, their journey only took twenty-eight minutes. But their return home took much longer as they walked home carefully: otherwise, the beach glass would break and they would have gone there with nothing to show for it. Nothing but a memory of their day—scouring for, selecting, and saving the best pieces of beach glass.

She had visited the green glass beach only once ever since she had come back from the capital after finishing university. There was nothing lonelier than walking on a forty-eight minute trail, once with company, now by herself.

Nowadays, she spent her Saturdays volunteering at the Buddhist Children Playgroup (BCP), a ten-minute drive from her home. It was not a perfect substitute, but the feeling of helping another person could offset memories, or at least helped her forget. At the very least, she was too busy handling the kids to think about anything else. Last year, sometime in May, she and another regular volunteer (it was that woman with the jutting chin, whose name she could never remember) had taken a group of BCP kids out to the green glass beach. Bringing lunch, first-aid kits and handphones with them, they walked the same road that she and Kevin had once walked every Saturday. The kids spoke too loudly; their blaring voices overwhelmed the whispers of the mangrove, the sighs of unanswered footprints. When they arrived at the beach, she explained to the kids where this beach glass comes from, and how they were formed. She taught them how to choose the best specimens and was horrified when they collected the flattest ones only to skip them across the water.

She never took them there again or suggested the green glass beach to anyone else. Her cousin and her ang-moh boyfriend had stopped by Sembahnang two months ago, as they were doing a grand tour of amazing Malaysia and wanted to visit a quaint charming place in the rural countryside. Something not too touristy, her cousin had requested, and so she pointed them in the direction of a beach resort twenty minutes away.

At any rate, no one went near the green glass beach unless they were scientists or foreign tourists. People said that it was haunted, a “dirty” place. You should shower after you go there to get rid of any evil spirits that have clung to you. You should never read messages in a bottle, because that is how spirits try to communicate with you. She didn’t believe in the superstitions, but she understood their essence, how they came about. There is something about sitting on the green sand, waves lapping at your toes, the whole sky unfurling wide-open over you that breeds a belief that there are things (forces) in the world bigger than you are. Everything that has happened in the entire history of the world—every death, every flood, every job, every farewell, every childhood love lost—lingers in the surrounding hills, in the drowned valley, in the green glass beach. What was she, then? A microscopic glimmer in a world where nothing ever changes? In many ways, she was comforted by that realization.

On the day her Ah-ma died, she had found a bottle, washed up on the beach and hidden in a cluster of phragmites. The bottle was battered, but there was a message inside, smeared, almost unintelligible. But she could very nearly make out the top, 1859, which would make it over a hundred and fifty years old. A hundred and fifty years of floating in the ocean. It seemed almost meant for her—that she should find it on the day her grandmother died when all life seemed transient.

She and Kevin had never told their families where they went on Saturday mornings, because they wouldn’t let them go there. Her mother would tell her that all these bad spirits would try to find a place in your soul and control you and you’d never be free.

Looking back, their families had probably let the both of them do whatever they wanted on Saturdays because they were hoping that they would fall in love, get married. He is such a nice boy, her father would tell her, so filial and obedient. Respects his elders. He would make a good husband.

*

They had gone to the beach for the sole reason of collecting beach glass. Every Saturday, they emptied their backpacks of schoolbooks and used them to carry beach glass home.

Beach glass is ordinary glassware—beer bottles and glass jars—that has found its way to the sea. There, it is whipped by waves, and crushed against rocks and passing ships, before being left behind on beaches far away from where it came from.

Imagine: you find a seemingly perfect green sphere. It is the size of a marble; it is sitting on your palm, still. It is the product of everything, everything (!) that has happened until this very moment: blown in a glass factory somewhere, used by someone, found its way into the sea, churned around in storms, washed up on a beach and now picked up by you to sit on your palm, still. It has seen fish, bits of wood and household rubbish floating in sea surface eddies, weed.

Crystallographically-speaking, it is unnatural: minerals do not naturally grow into spheres. Its crystal system is not in the charts.

Microscopically-speaking, it is flawed: glass is a supercooled liquid with no long-range structures, no symmetry, no order. Although glass may look solid, it is actually a liquid and can flow at very slow speeds, unnoticeable to the naked eye. After several millennia, this glass sphere will have flowed into another shape altogether.

But, in terms of a human lifetime and to human eyes, this glass sphere is perfect.

*

In any case, she hadn’t been back to the green glass beach ever since she returned— except for that one time with the BPS kids—until one day in December, when Kevin returned to Sembahnang. He stopped by at her house three days after he returned, while she was out at work. She called him as soon as she found out that he had stopped by and asked whether he would like to go walking the next day, out to the green glass beach.

He said yes, and continued with, “Are you still collecting beach glass, Min? Do you still have that jar filled with green marbles? Do you still arrange them by size when you are bored?”

On her dresser was a jar filled with beach glass spheres that she had collected over the years. Whenever she was bored, she would empty the jar, arrange them by size and then place them back in, one by one.

“Of course not,” she told Kevin. “Why do you ask?” She listened to the flat dial tone after he had put the phone down.

The next day Kevin came to her house and they walked on their forty-eight minute journey on Jalan Changkat Beruas, as always.

“I can’t stay too long at the beach—I’m leaving tomorrow, and I haven’t yet spoken to my parents about Michelle. They’ve been busy with the shop and everything for the past three days,” he told her, just as they started walking.

“What do you have to speak to them about Michelle for?”

“She’s leaving for the Netherlands soon. She just got posted there on a two-year assignment. You know what happened there, right?”

“No…other than the fact that the one of the princes got married. The good-looking one,” she told him, smiling a little.

He smiled too. “There goes your dream of becoming a princess.”

“Yeah, too bad about that.”

“Don’t be too sad,” Kevin poked her with his elbow. “I’m sure there are other princes you could marry.”

“But all of them are married now. Or too old.” She made a sad face. “Their families and government and countrymen won’t like it if I chased off their wives.”

He laughed.

They passed Mr. Tan’s prawn farm, the Burmese workers’ huts, the fish warehouses, then they came across the old railway line, where they stepped carefully from one wooden sleeper to another, neither of them energetic enough to skip as they once had. All around was a bit of raised land, with mangrove trees fringing the edges. Here was where seas and rivers mingled. Her heart felt light and heavy at the same time.

“A large storm hit their coast. The floodgates, dikes and dunes were all breached. The waves reached eight meters high in some places and flooded at least several low-lying villages,” Kevin said.

“Did anyone die?”

“At least twenty. And thousands evacuated.”

She had not heard about this. She stopped reading the newspapers a year ago. “Their system was so geotechnically-advanced,” she said. “I remember the prof. telling us that they have these giant storm surge barriers to protect their coasts—huge ones, six to ten meters high. If we have had that here, in Sembahnang, the flood wouldn’t have happened.”

“It was one of those freak storms, a one-in-fifty-thousand-year storm. Crazy, isn’t it? You would think, one-in-fifty-thousand-years—what are the chances of an event like that happening during my lifetime? Zero…except, it isn’t really zero. It has a one-in-fifty-thousand probability, and it could happen today, and tomorrow, and the day after, because that is all the number is, a probability.”

“Probabilities fail when you want them to work the most.”

“Tell me about it,” he said. “Michelle was asked to be a project manager on their reconstruction project, by protecting whatever coastline is left, and then to pump out and drain the area. She is flying out there in three weeks time.”

“Congratulations,” Min said.

*

Fifty years ago, their families used to live in Old Sembahnang, a town that once lay in the valley. It used to be a swamp, but over time, the swamp was drained by electric pumps, and protected by a system of wooden dikes. Old Sembahnang was two—maybe three—meters below sea level, but the sea was kept out and it stayed dry. During one monsoon season, storm surges breached the dikes. Several of the barriers broke down. Water from sea and rivers spread into the town, slowly. “You would have thought that once the barriers were breached, the whole town would be flooded in an instant,” Min’s Kong-Kong said. In reality, it took time to drown the entire valley.

There were puddles of water on the roads at first, filling potholes, then these puddles connected into a murky deluge that swept away anything left on the ground, kettles on wood-burning stoves, children’s toys, broken half-cups, a five-hundred word History essay on the fall of Malacca to the Portuguese with loose ink running off the pages. The residents tried to carry away whatever they could, grabbing spare fishing boats and stacking them up high with their things.

There was even one fishing boat that had sunk under the weight of its load. It was owned by Tauke Chong, who owned the town’s only sundry store. He was too greedy and tried to pile his entire store in. He thought he had succeeded in saving everything, up until the very last second, when the boat gave a last sigh and disappeared under the water. Cans of Milo drifted away, too beautiful to watch, hundreds of electric green cans bobbing in the brown murk. Some had even opened to let its contents mix with the seawater. Within a twenty-meter radius of the sinking boat, you could have had a chocolate-flavoured Milo drink.

Days passed and the waters kept rising, until you could only see the tops of houses, and then not even that. Min’s Kong-Kong and family, like the others, moved into the next town further south and renamed it New Sembahnang. The dikes were never repaired, nor was Old Sembahnang ever drained. The mangrove swamp grew between the ghosts of the abandoned town.

Old Sembahnang, transient and fleeting, existed for all of a generation.

If you were to try to visit Old Sembahnang today, all you would see are the surrounding hills, the mangrove swamp, the drowned valley, the green glass beach.

*

As they went along the old railway line, sometimes they would talk; mostly they would walk with the tips of their fingers occasionally brushing. She thought she heard footsteps—not hers, not Kevin’s, but a third person’s, a millisecond or two out of beat with theirs. She looked around whenever she heard the footsteps, but they would stop just as her head turned. Eventually, she realized that the footsteps were actually her water-bottle bouncing off her backpack as she walked.

Suddenly, Kevin threw his head back and laughed to the sky. He said, “Remember that one time when we found a bottle at sea with a message in it? We were out at the beach, and it was the day before your grandmother’s funeral. It was drizzling and I had slipped on the rocks. Remember? We were so excited. We actually thought it was a hundred and fifty years old.” He laughed again. “So gullible.”

“Wasn’t it? Wasn’t it a hundred and fifty years old?”

“Min, you trust everyone and everything. The cork is not airtight. Humidity and salt would have long destroyed the paper. The glass bottle wouldn’t have survived a hundred and fifty years of being thrown up by the waves.”

She was disappointed. The dull ache in her heart grew.

“Sorry,” he said. “I thought you must have known. The green glass factory was flooded just fifty years past, and only the green marbles have survived to today, because they are smaller than the other pieces. And one day, those green marbles will be broken up too.”

*

They heard it all the time when they were growing up. Get married. After all, weren’t they childhood sweethearts, in a way? He kissed her on her cheek several times, and even a quick peck on the lips, once, when they were both fifteen and it had seemed like the thing to do at that time. Kevin had knelt down, clasped her hand to his ear, and mock-proposed to her. She felt deeply thrilled by his mock proposal, although she took care not to let it show. But, all this happened in the context of a small town where there was no one else but them. When they both went to university, in the big capital city, their shared experiences diverged.

People liked Kevin. At dinner, they came around in groups, clustering, grouping, wanting to sit next to him. They felt unlucky if they got a place at the other end of the table, away from him. When he proposed seeing a movie, everyone wanted to come along. Kevin never walked in the hallways alone. Third-year students would ask him questions like, “What do you think of today’s lecture?” followed by a question on what he was doing for lunch. Or, what about dinner? All of them, the ambitious engineers, the hierarchical computer programmers, the idealistic humanities students, the cool kids. Even professors liked speaking to him.

Kevin would ask her to join him at the parties he went to, only that she inevitably ended up sitting in a corner and sipping at her drink, slowly, so she would look like she was busy doing something. She observed Kevin a lot from her corner. He was oblivious that life could be different for other people; he was always happy, sometimes cruelly so. From time to time, Kevin would walk up to her and have a private conversation or shout her name from across the room. Everyone would turn to look at her. She was flustered, but there was nothing more flattering than being linked to Kevin. Once, as she was sitting on the couch, watching everyone else dance, Kevin approached her with another guy whom she knew from her classes.

“Min, meet Heng Lee. Min’s from Sembahnang too,” Kevin said, before he disappeared into the crowd again.

She panicked—the light was too strong, the voices were too loud—but then she told herself that Heng Lee was just another person.

“Have we met before?” Heng Lee asked her.

She wanted to say, yes, you borrowed one of my pens during Structural Design and never returned it. Instead what she said was, “I think you’re in one of my classes. Structural Design.”

“Seriously? I usually sleep through it. It’s too early in the morning.”

“Yes. So, where are you from?”

“Bangsar,” he answered. “Not too far from here, not like Sembahnang, I guess.”

“Yes, Sembahnang is about eight hours away.”

“They make those green marbles, right? That famous green glass factory.”

“The factory was closed a long time ago. It was destroyed in a flood.”

She couldn’t think of anything more to say. She sipped at her drink again and smoothed her skirt. She wished Kevin were here. When she looked up, Heng Lee was still sitting at the other end of the couch.

“Where are you from, anyway?”

“You already asked that question,” he smiled.

“Oh…ha…that’s right. Yes. What do you think of this party?”

“It’s a nice apartment. We are in Bukit Tunku, after all. Probably one of the most expensive places to live in capital. Like Kensington or Chelsea in London.”

Min shook her head. She wasn’t sure what he was referring to.

“Have you seen the view?” he said.

“No,” she answered. The windows were far from where she stood, and besides, there were too many people standing by it.

“Come on, I’ll show it to you.” Heng Lee took her hand, and they walked to the full-length windows. The sixteenth-floor apartment overlooked the entire skyline, the city pulsing with light. She could see, beneath her, the capital city, the horizon and the sky of stars beyond.

“Kuala Lumpur,” he said, sweeping his free hand in an arc, as if unfurling the glittering streets and all of the city’s deepest quietest secrets.

“I need to go to the toilet now,” she said, and left.

In their final year, Kevin got himself a girlfriend, and her name was Michelle. When they held hands, it was the most natural thing in the world.

*

Everything in Old Sembahnang had revolved around the green glass factory. Before the flood, the green glass factory had produced some of the world’s finest glassware. They made everything from goblets to pitchers to vases to art glass to chalices, all in monochromatic gradations of green: pistachio, jade, lime, forest, olive, emerald, avocado, Lincoln, Nile, sea—and no other colour. They were especially famous for their green glass marbles. Each marble looked like little frosted balls of green, covered in scratches—except when you looked closely, the scratches were actually intricate patterns on the surface, carved by men like her Kong-Kong. Too expensive to be played with, these marbles were bought by collectors.

Old Sembahnang would not have existed without the green glass factory. Min’s Kong-Kong moved to Sembahnang for a job at the green glass factory, where he learned the skill of carving tiny patterns with a scratcher. Min’s father had expected to find a job in the green glass factory too. Schools, clinics, restaurants, hawkers, tailors clustered in the town and Old Sembahnang grew into a thriving community.

After the flood drowned Sembahnang, the green glass factory was moved to a large industrial park down south, where they now produce glassware of many different colours and no marbles. The glassware remnants from the factory were swept up with the flood, broken up by the waves and thrown up on the shore. The green marbles kept their sphericity, but their distinctive patterns were erased with time.

And that is how the green glass beach was formed.

*

They approached the green glass beach and stood, facing the surrounding hills, the drowned valley. The glass spheres moved around their feet. There was no one other than them, not even the occasional Saturday runner. The shuffling noises their feet made echoed throughout, so loud, unanswered.

She picked up a seemingly-perfect glass sphere from the ground and cradled it in her palm. “Are you ever going to come back and live in Sembahnang? Not now, obviously, but sometime in the future. Perhaps when you retire,” she asked.

“There’s nothing left here, with everyone moving away. No jobs, not for a civil engineer.”

“So, you’ll be staying in the city then, in Kuala Lumpur?”

“Yes, or another city. Oh, I wanted to ask you whether—”

She cut him off. “It’s beautiful here,” she said, agitated.

Min wanted to tell him that there was nowhere else she would rather be, that everything in the world is linked to here. When she saw green glass vases in anonymous street cafes, or on display at a receptionist’s desk, she was reminded of this place where waves lapped at her toes. Living anywhere else meant that she would live each day knowing that something important was missing in her life, something that whispered her name even when she walked along the busy Petaling Street with people pushing at her elbow, wanting to eat a bowl of laksa from the most popular street cart. Something that whispered her name even as the neon signs buzzed in her ear.

She wanted to tell him that the entire history of the world was contained here, in the miniature pictorial scratches on green glass marbles that men like her Kong-Kong had carved. But, she didn’t know how to say this to him, so she repeated herself, “It’s beautiful here.”

“It is beautiful,” he sighed, “but that’s all it is. There’s no future here—it’s some backwater place, Min.” Kevin waved a hand at the mangrove swamp, “And I mean it literally: backwater. The sea’s slowly reclaiming the land, the mangrove swamp is spreading. New Sembahnang is dying small town. We weren’t meant for anything more than the glass factory, and even that’s been gone for fifty years.”

“But this makes it worth living here, for now.”

“Ah, Min, the ever hopeful one,” he said, placing an arm around her shoulders. “Sembahnang is too small for you, and it will only get smaller. Don’t let changes act on you. No one can give you a destiny to follow. This is life and it is not a fairy tale; there is no deus ex machina, and there is no prince that can sweep you off your feet.”

“But isn’t that what love is? Isn’t love a type of deus ex machina? Love is an unexpected, transformative power that sweeps people off their feet and makes everything right. Love is a happy ending, a gift of grace bestowed on two lucky people, where just one kiss makes the world go ‘round. Isn’t Cupid a god and doesn’t he shoot his bow on two unsuspecting people? Isn’t it all so random who gets it, this gift?”

Kevin said, “No, that’s not it. Maybe, you could call that an infatuation. Because love is something you seek and build and create, an experience that you might be scared of, but push yourself into anyway, nervous, but excited, because you and the other person could build new worlds. Together as a whole instead of as imperfect halves, worlds that you could have never built on your own. It is transformative but the transformation comes from within, it is not imposed or forced upon the walls of your soul; rather, you break down your own walls because you want to break them down, even though you don’t quite know what is out there yet, and even if there is a chance that there is nothing out there after all.”

He took her hands in his. He said, “Get out of here before it’s too late, before you drown too.”

She was calmed by the touch of his hands.

They stood there a while longer, before he said, “Well, we should head back. I need to get back early to talk to my parents about the wedding and all that,” Kevin said, as he slipped his hands back into his pockets.

“You’re getting married!”

“Well, we were talking about it. It seems a little sudden, but we thought that it might be good if we got married, so that I could go to Holland with her. She’ll be there for two years after all.”

The green glass sphere that she was cradling seemed to melt in her hands.


Elizabeth Wong grew up in Malaysia, majored in English and Geology at Yale University, and now lives in London, UK. During the day, she works as a geologist, exploring stories of how the world used to be. She recently completed her first novel, We Are Stardust (longlisted in the Bath Novel Award 2018 and the Lucy Cavendish Fiction Prize 2019). 

Letter from the Editor

Photo by Maeve Holler

Dear Reader,

Today, we release the sixth issue of Sinking City. It is the first day of the Fall 2019 semester at the University of Miami and the sky is teeming with a thick humidity only known as August to South Floridians. The air is wet & dense & impenetrable.

For us in Miami, today marks the end of the eternal summer. Perhaps for The Girl Caught in a Landslide, today is merely a Monday where she is remembered again as out-of-place and subterranean. Or perhaps she, like many of us, is being Rapunzeled, over & over again.

Today, the Queen of the Sunken City is resurrected in flashes of yellow. For her, today may be a tool of re-imagination. A way of knowing The Broken Parts are only a blurry recollection of yesterday. And perhaps, while she flares in between space & time, the Queen rides slow on a ’77 Alva, Megamillions ticket in hand.

In Sinking City’s sixth issue, 11 writers, poets, and artists explore the mechanisms of today, tomorrow, and yesterday. They question the validity of reality and expand with futurism into possibility. Like our previous Managing Editor Stephanie Lane Sutton wrote about issue five, while Sinking City is directly dedicated to bringing attention to climate change and environmental issues, “these pieces are less about the environment itself & more about the challenges of intersecting identities during our historical moment.”

I am encouraged by these pieces to consider a universe beyond the challenges at hand. These writers and artists expand the concept of probability tenfold. And, sitting in the high morning sun of Miami, watching the pregnant rain clouds flit by, I know that the work in this issue is much needed, and will continue to generate new meaning over time, sight unseen. As Alina Stefanescu writes, “If you watch a plant, it won’t grow.”

On behalf of the MFA program at the University of Miami, I am honored to welcome you to this realm. And whatever today means for you, wherever you are, I hope these pieces grow alongside you—no matter what storm, or lack thereof, you are facing.

Sincerely,

Maeve Holler

Managing Editor, Sinking City

Galatic Energy, Sea Life

by Sandy Coomer

Sandy Coomer is an artist and poet living in Brentwood, TN. Her poetry has been published in numerous journals and anthologies and she is the author of three poetry chapbooks and a full-length collection titled Available Light (Iris Press). Her art has been featured in local art shows and exhibits, and has been published in journals such as Lunch Ticket, Gravel, The Wire’s Dream Magazine, Up the Staircase, Taxicab, Spider Mirror and The Magnolia Review, among others. Sandy is currently the director of Rockvale Writers’ Colony in College Grove, TN.

Three Translations of Jacques Viau Renaud

Sendero

by Jacques Jacques Viau Renaud

Sendero retorcido de dolor
mordido por la sangre
y botas que envenenan.
Sendero fecundado de cruces,
de cielos ausentes
y de esqueletos de árboles
en coloquio con la muerte.
Con la muerte que cicatriza llagas
llagas abiertas
para mi solo
por mi solo
para el hombre
por los hombres.
Sendero que huye de la urbe
ebrio de humo y de alchoholes
dilatados de ausencias
espera…
Sendero de abortada presencia
de horizontes
siempre viejos
mordido
por la sangre
y botas sordas
al gritos de la tierra.

Path

translated by Ariel Francisco

Path twisted by pain
bitten by blood
and poisonous boots.
Path fertile with crosses
of absent heavens
and skeletal trees
in colloquium with death.
With a death that scars over sores
open sores
only for me
for man
for mankind.
Path that flees the city
drunk on smoke and silences
where the drunk whore of liquor
dilates absences
wait—
Path of aborted presences
of horizons
always old
bitten
by the blood
and deaf boots
to the howls of the earth.

Estoy Tranando de Hablaros de mi Patria

by Jacques Viau Renaud

ESTOY tratando de hablaros de mi patria,
aquella que comienza a deslizarse
allá donde crecen las guazabaras,
las cayenas fragiles,
los cantaros sedientos y polvorientos,
la yerba rara,
amarillenta,
solitaria lanza midiendo el corazón de mi Isla.

ESTOY tratando de hablaros de mi patria,
desde aqui,
desde mi guarida salina,
desde Santo Domingo,
quizas os hable de ambas:
son dos terrones complementarios
puntos cardinales de mi tristeza
caidos de la rosa de los vientos
como amantes cuyo abrazo se rompieran.

ESTOY tratando de hablaros de mi patria,
de su prole de montes y altibajos,
de planicies soñolientas,
donde ha mucho parieron ríos:
muchedumbre de cristales apiñados en las hondonadas.

MI PATRIA
es una tierra elevada
de dilatados herbazales y doradas mazorcas
que cruzan los mares y se van muy lejos
mientras los hombres del monte y la llanura
se dilatan hambrientos.

Es una tierra con muchos montes pelados,
sonoros rios de apaciguada fauna
y violentos vegetales…

CRUJE mi patria al parir
y sus proles se reducen
y parecen hojas desprendidas
confundiéndose en los bosques con la magra corteza de los
arboles.

ALLI, aprisionada entre dos brazos de arcilla,
roca y piedra,
duerme una ciudad que huele a muerto,
a caña madura,
a virgen alcohol terrosa
como resina de nudosas raíces destacadas.

ES UNA ciudad de calles sin nombres
y atajos de espanto,
habitada hasta en las grietas,
en las cloacas,
quedamente recorrida por las ratas y los murciélagos.

ES UNA ciudad de muchas proles numerosas,
de millares de niños que nunca crecieron,
que nunca supieron el color de los faroles
ni del alba con pan y sin lágrimas,
de niños que maduraron las tumbas,
la tierra apisonada adornada de girasoles,
y la luz de las pupilas ciegas.

ALLI he nacido,
de alli parti atado a la sangre,
solo, después de los años,
descubrí en mi pecho la mancha roja,
entonces aprendí a leer en las hojas,
a hablar con la tierra
y a callar cuando ella reconstruía la historia
de los muchos muertos que la sustentan,
de la sangre que alimentó sus frutas,
del llanto que sostuvo la precocidad de sus montes.

MUCHO tiempo ha transcurrido desde que parti,
nada ha cambiado,
siguen los ismos montes pelados,
la misma vegetación de vegetales y girasoles,
de cafetales oscuros y pastizales estrellados,
solo el hambre ha crecido,
ya no hay lugar en los cementerios
ni en mi Isla patrias,
solo dimensiones de tierra y harapo,
de muertos desencajados en el vientre del barro.

ASI es mi patria,
prolongación del Santo Domingo que llora,
asi es mi guarida,
prolongación del grito que recorre los montes,
los caminitos,
los bosques,
desde el otro lado de la sangre,
desde la mole de San Nicolás,
hasta la frente de cristal salobre
y esqueletos de peces mudos amontonados sobre la playa
creciendo y haciéndose montañas
entre redes hambrientas y ahumados pescadores.
Allí los muertos se hacen peces hermosos,
algas extensas, musgo silencioso,
o acantilado de rumores que la noche protege.

HE QUERIDO hablaros de mi patria,
de mis dos patrias,
de mi Isla
que ha mucho dividieron los hombres
allí donde se aparearon crear un río.

I am Trying to Tell You about My Homeland

translated by Ariel Francisco

I’m trying to tell you about my homeland,
the one that begins to slip
there where the guasabara trees grow,
the fragile peppers,
the thirsty dust covered pitchers,
the yellowish
strange grass,
lonely spear measuring the heart of my island.

I’m trying to tell you about my homeland,
from here,
from my saline lair,
from Santo Domingo,
maybe I’ll speak of both:
they’re two complimentary mounds
cardinal points of my sadness
fallen from the wind’s rose
like lovers breaking their embrace.

I’m trying to tell you about my homeland,
of her children, her peaks and valleys,
her sleepy plains
where countless rivers are born:
crowds of crystals huddled in the hollows.

My homeland
is a plateau
of betrayed herbs and golden corn
that cross the seas to go far off
while the people of the mountains and plains
grow with hunger.

It’s a land of many bare mountains,
loud rivers of cheerful wildlife
and violent flora.

My homeland cracked giving birth
and her children wither
and look like dying leaves
confusing themselves in the forest of thin barked trees.

There, imprisoned between two clay arms,
rock and stone,
sleeps a city that smells of death,
of sugarcane,
an earthly virgen liquor
like the resin of great gnarled roots.

It’s a city of nameless streets
and ghostly alleys
even the cracks are inhabited,
even the sewers,
quietly traversed by rats and bats.

It’s a city full of countless children,
of countless children that never grow up,
that never learned the colors of lanterns
or the dawn, with bread and without tears,
of children who ripen in tombs,
the tamped ground adorned with sunflowers,
and the light of blind eyes.

Here, I was born,
from there I left, tied to the blood,
alone, after years,
I found the red stain inside me,
and then learned to read the leaves,
to speak with the earth
and quiet when she reconstructs the history
of the many dead that sustain her,
of the blood that fed her fruits,
the screams that sustained her precocious mountains.

So much time has passed since I left,
nothing has changed
those same bald mountains go on,
the same vegetation of vegetables and sunflowers,
the same dark coffee fields and starry pastures,
only hunger has grown,
there’s no more room in the cemeteries
or in the crying eyes
or in my island homeland,
only dimensions of dirt and rags,
of the dead unhinged by the wind from the mud.

This is my homeland,
an extension of Santo Domingo crying,
this is my haunt,
extension of the cry echoing from the mountains,
the paths,
the forests,
from the other side of the blood,
from the mole of Saint Nicholas,
to the face of the brackish crystal
and the bones of deaf fish piled on the beach
making and becoming mountains
between hungry nets and smoked fisherman.
Here the dead turn into handsome fish,
covered in algae, silent moss,
or cliffs of rumors protected by the night.

I’ve been trying to tell you about my homeland,
of my homelands,
of my island
that has long divided man
there where they came together to create a river.

LA LLUVIA

by Jacques Viau Renaud

La lluvia se abría sobre el pavimento
dibujando.
Ociosas prostitutas
semiescondidas
se guarecian
esperando algun tonto beodo
que vierta en sus enganchados encantos
su semanal hambre aguantada
de agrio sudor infecundo
de mujer que se rompe las uñas y los dedos
de niños que aguardan el plato siempre lejano
el postre extrañisimo.

La vida transcurria
los focos de los automóviles
asediaban las calles de impúdicas visiones.
La voracidad babeante de los callejones oscuros
abría orificios en la carne del hombre.

Los guardias
y sus fusiles
la policia y sus garrotes
el espia y su largo oído
anunciaban el estallido
anunciaban la muerte sobre las espaldas de la lluvia.
Finamente cayendo
como lianas transparentes y quebradizas
que dejan entre sí estrechas compuertas
por donde el aire se escapa seco
en esta noche de caluroso diciembre
abierto a la sangre
como una migaja abandonada en un puñado de hambre.

La vida transcurria.
Los guardias
y las prostitutas se hacían señas
y pronto las palabras no eran más que recuerdo.
Los niños
cubrían sus cuerpecitos con sus manos
pequeñitas
expuestos a la lujuria del tiempo.

Los grandes señores
codeando la noche cambiaban de ropaje
para extirpar de la infancia
la honradez todavía incipiente de los arrabales.

Los callejones aullaban un sucio espanto.
La noche se deshacía
se alejaban las estrellas
las prostitutas
cansadas
bostezando se marchaban,
mientras que un niño limpiabotas
empujaba las pocas puertas que del amor quedaban.

Diciembre con dias sangrientos
y dilatados
empapados de savia rebelde
arrancada del pueblo como raíces
que van limpiando las mugrientas edades pasadas
levantando la vida.

The Rain

translated by Ariel Francisco

The rain opens over the pavement,
drawing.
Idle prostitutes
half hidden
protecting themselves
waiting for some drunk idiot
to empty into their charmed hooks
holding in that weekly hunger
of sour sterile sweat
of women that break their nails and fingers
of children that await that far off plate
the strange dessert.

Life goes on
the car headlights
besiege the streets with lewd visions.
The drooling veracity of dark alleys
opens holes in the body of man.

The guards
and their rifles
the cops and their clubs
the spies and their long hatred
announcing the blood
announcing the outbreak
announcing the dead on the back of the rain.
Falling finely
like transparent and brittle vines
leaving narrow gates between them
where the dry air escapes
in this hot December night
open to the blood
like an abandoned crumb in a handful of hunger.

Life goes on.
The guards
and prostitutes signal each other
and soon words will only be memories.
The children
cover their small bodies with their hands
tiny
exposed to the lust of time.

The large men
hustling through the night change clothes
to remove their childhood
honor still incipient in the suburbs.

The alleys howl a dirty ghost.
Night comes undone
the stars back away
the women
tired
yawning, they march,
meanwhile a shoeshine kid
pushes the few doors left by love.

December of bloody
and dilated days
soaked with the sap of rebellion
pulled from the people like roots
that clean the grim past
lifting up life.

Letter from the Editor

It is the night before the fifth issue of Sinking City is released & there is a rip current warning in effect. It’s mid-February & I can’t remember the last time I touched the ocean.

In the Arabian peninsula, Jabal Al-taweel freezes & thaws as it stretches to the sky. In Cape Cod, the temperature skirts above & below freezing, turning snow to slurry before freezing to the ground.

In Marquette, Michigan, where Krys Malcolm Belc lives, there is currently a blizzard. The National Weather Radar shows a light-blue storm, shaped like a semi-colon, spanning the entire width of the Upper Peninsula.

Meanwhile, at the bottom of Lake Michigan, Chicago barely thaws from last month’s polar vortex. A light snow is falling on Cermak & California as commuters wait for the 21 Bus to take them East or West.

In Southern Louisiana, rain clouds will withdraw, only to circle back & rain again by midnight tonight.

Today in Beijing, the temperature is -5 degrees Celsius. Meanwhile, in Bogotá, the humid air hangs at a balmy 13°C. In Emperatriz Ung’s poems, dishes break like blossoms under the heel & fuse together again.

This year, the ground hog did not see his shadow, predicting an early spring. In his 132 year history, Punxsutawney Phil’s shadow has evaded him only 19 of times; 5 of those instances occurred since 2007. A February 7th report stated that the past 5 years have been the hottest in the history of recorded weather.

In Sinking City’s fifth issue, 19 poets, writers, & artists show what it means to live in a world teetering on apocalypse. It’s the first issue produced by a second generation of editors, & we’ve sought to honor & expand this magazine’s founding mission. Often, these pieces are less about the environment itself, & more about the challenges of intersecting identities during our historical moment.

In the morning, Coral Gables will be doused with rain as we graduate students assume our day-to-day positions as teaching assistants, administrators, & scholars. I will sweat inside my navy-blue raincoat & attempt (unsuccessfully) to leap over growing puddles in my bright pink Converse sneakers. Meanwhile, my family in the midwest will prepare for lake effect snow, & wait for me to crack a joke about how I’m never moving back. We’ll all laugh. Then I’ll remember the approaching hurricane season. I’ll remembering that Miami Beach will be entirely under water by the time my future children are old enough for college.

As I prepare to release the fifth issue of Sinking City into the world, I find myself meditating on the words of recently departed Mary Oliver: Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination. Through the process of compiling this issue, I have found myself pausing, again & again, to linger on the images & stories of these 19 contributors. Again & again, I am transported by their work, to new places & new perspectives.

When the storm clears again, I will fix my gaze on the sky & wait to see what new birds will pass by in their migration. I often wonder if lifelong Floridians have grown used to the sight of them, the way that I, in my final year at the University of Miami, no longer feel a pang of sublimity at the sight of a royal poinciana arcing across the road.

Where ever you are, in your own late winter, on behalf of the MFA program at the University of Miami, it is my honor to offer you these worlds of imagination.

Signed,

Stephanie Lane Sutton
Managing Editor, Sinking City